Yes Mr Infinity, I always understood a bit more of your posts along with picking up on the similar background. And perhaps somewhat of the same type of mindset.
Silence is slavery and stagnation, so I will share
Raised in the fundamental way it was " heaven or hell, you are either saved by the blood of Jesus or doomed , neither faith or works saves alone but the two combined and begun with repenting and confessing to god and the church...
I was quite curious as a kid (tween) and ate up the KJV , to the point of the elders in the family would comment, " he has a grasp of the scripture" I think they felt I was destined for the pulpit, and at times I did too. It always amazed me the stories of spirit and angelic encounters, as a kid I felt energy and such around me along with some auras and such. I remember asking when young. "why don't the angels visit anymore"? " gods important work was then , and ask Jesus to forgive your load of sin" or something like that. My other thought as a kid , How can god just throw away all those people who aren't Christian at all?
I got a bit older and sowed some oats, feeling the guilt and fear that had been laid on thickly as a kid. I was enjoying myself, though scared to pass as hell would surely await. All the while thinking someday I would repent. And that some of it didn't sit well.
One night as a close friend drown next to me, the angel roused me from the hypothermia calling my name several times and " its not your time, wake up, swim,, now put your feet down.
This began the real questions. that echoed from my childhood .. there was more spirit around , and did my friend burn in the Christian hell?
then he talked to me a month or so later...
From here the path winds. spirit giving the prods, lessons and synchronicities that lead to growth
I feel that most organizations thrives in adding people to their agendas. Be it the above church , the gov, a new age group, etc.
Today I will say that I believe that much of what is discussed here is likely as a replacement for the understandings of the workings of our history and sciences.( and I only understand a reasonable majority of a fraction of the material here and on AQ )
In the end I have moved far from the harsh creator version of divine, to a creative spirit fractured into infinite cells experiencing life and ultimately most of which is destined to return to the source . That our earth is a larger chunk of divine than we as individuals certainly. That we come into alignment with spirit and grow most by seeing each other as cells of divine ,( true rapport) many of us as bad children with lots to learn in the cycles of karma and reincarnation.
( this is as best as I can describe in a short text format)
I get that this may differ from many views, but I feel that it still fits from the greater likely truths found on this fora